zhidan:D_

2010

2009-12-31T23:31:00.003+08:00

New year.
Seriously, i dun really give a damn.
Os next yr.
It just mean another yr of torture, studying, crying.

Countdown, fireworks, whatever.
In a super grumpy mood now.

How to feel the festive joy when everything just doesnt feel right?
Cry.
Im sure i'll feel much better.

Thanks to this bunch of ppl for making my day ytd.
Im truly happy.

Fashion Crew

2009-12-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

Didnt went cca today.
And im bloody scared i cant catch up and will lag again -.-
Hate that kind of loser and useless feeling.
Always happen nowadays.
Now mad replaying the song and trying to go through in head.
You break me up, you break me down~

Didnt wanted to go cca cause had lots of drinks to carry up hill then going botanical garden alone.
Sian.
Carrying 4 packets of drinks plus one 1.5litre bottle is enough to kill when walking from bedok inter to mrt.
The dist is so short pls.
Imagine carrying to sch, DIE.

Anw, today is a fun day out with the fashion crew.
Loves!
Took like 300-400+ photos with charis' dslr.
Now she makes me feel like owning a dslr also.
GAHHHH!
Save up, save up!
Anw, i did sth super awesomezxzx :D :D :D
Will post it up when she finishes editing.
Tough work.

Just a side note, read from newspaper that most ppl will feel super extremely guilty on 29th december.
Idk why either.

"I miss talking to you, knowing that you get and understand me. Everytime I talk to someone else, it just reminds me of how much they don't.

827`

2009-12-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

Bloody confused.
With alot of things.
Im even confused whether i should go cca tmr.
It's like i dun want to pon, but im lazy to carry all the drinks up the hill and ltr going to botanical gardens again.
ARGH.

This post was saved as drafts cause mum was looking at my com screen throughout. FML -.-

Christmas

2009-12-25T23:43:00.004+08:00

THANKYOU TO MANDY AND JIANYOU FOR MAKING MY CHRISTMAS A LESS EMO ONE.

Meet up at bedok and went dhoby for the super nice jap food as claimed by mandy.
In the end it's nihon mura, LOL.
She didnt know tamp and pasir ris also have.
Was the slowest again -.-

Went cathay and caught Alvin and the chipmunks 2.
The grand cathay theatre is SUPER HUGE.
LIKE HUGE HUGE -.-
Used to think that the chipmunks are very very irritating, but they're superrrrr cute.
Their voice is still irritating though :/
ALL THE SINGLE LADIES!

Went 313@somerset where mandy and i only purpose is to go f21.
Jy went elsewhere to walk, LOL.
4 storey high and yet found nth.
F21 online is so much nicer and cheaper.
Received my paris tee and black tank alr.
The tee is ultimate chio and cute to the max.
Val and jacq!
Will pass you all your stuffs soon once i see you all.

Went orchard aft that to the flea at fast east.
We totally lost track of time and jy have to wait like super long -.-
Paisehhhh.
2 tops caught my eye and yet i bought none.
SAVE MONEY!
Shopped alot during the hols alr, feel bad for spending, boooo.

Dinner at lido kfc.
Lost track of time also.
Took like 1hr+ to eat.
Okay, for my case -.-
Went home aft that.

THANKYOU MANDY FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TO SHOPSHOPSHOP + MORE SHOP.
THANKYOU JIANYOU FOR WAITINGWAITINGWAITING + MORE WAITING.
At least this yr christmas, im not alone.

AND KOEK IS BACK!
FINALLY.
Miss her so much okay.

If i could explain love in one word, it would have to be trust.  
Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you,
trust that he doesn’t lie to  you,
trust that he really likes you,
trust that he will always be  there for you,
trust that he can go to a party and not get high  or drunk,
trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking  up with you the second you wake up,
trust that he will stick up  for you,
trust that he will never fall in love with another girl, 
trust that he won’t just get sick of you,
and trust that he  wants you like you want him.
-eletheowl

Trust is important.

Christmas isn't christmas

2009-12-25T00:10:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to the rest of the ppl out there.

Nuffnang Movie Contest – “Old Dogs”

2009-12-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

Nuffnang Movie Contest – “Old Dogs”

Okay, basically my favourite scene is this scene, the nut job.
Don't you think the expression on the guy's face is so hilarious?
Chanced upon this facebook grp the other day.
"If girls have period pains, then guys should get kicked in the balls every month"
Im a girl, so i don't understand how is it like to be kicked/whacked in the balls.
However, i do know how does period pains feel like so i guess being whacked in the balls is a pretty painful thing as well? :/
Well, i'll never know :D

Old Dogs opens in cinema 31 Dec 2009

Memories

2009-12-23T23:32:00.003+08:00

Assume makes an ass out of me and u.
So never assume things.
Which i do, all the time.
Thinking too much sucks.

Christmas eve in ard 20mins time?
Last yr christmas eve was hell.

christmas eve tmr.
sian.
dun even hav tat kind of mood/feeling -.-
-Last yr blog entry

This yr, not any better.
Ppl you dun care/know, come pestering.
Nobody will understand.
Idk what i talking also.
Zzz.

& i realised my last yr post wasnt even THAT emo like now.
Wtheck.

"The worst part of holding the memories is not the pain. It's the loneliness of it. Memories need to be shared.
-Lois Lowry [The Giver]

Bleed to death

2009-12-22T23:14:00.002+08:00

It just don't feel like christmas without you - Rihanna

Another day another reminder that your not here with me,
I watch the snowflakes falling from the sky then I get lost in memories,
The time we tried to build a snowman, the time we tried to count the stars,
Its crazy how we didn’t know that we'd ever be apart.

I can hear the music playing,
See the lights upon the tree,.
I can feel the joy in every soul,
But for me it's incomplete.
And I try my best to play the part,
But no matter what I do,
No it just don’t feel like Christmas, without you.

Another tear, another regret boy, that you're so far away,
Can it be, that it was only last year we shared that Christmas day?
Remember when we took the sleigh ride, remember singing by the fire?
There's to much that’s in the daylight, I keep reliving you and I.

I can hear the music playing,
See the lights upon the tree,.
I can feel the joy in every soul,
but for me it's incomplete.
And I try my best to play the part
But no matter what I do,
No it just don’t feel like Christmas, no it just don’t feel like Christmas, without you.

See I tried but it just ain't right, without you.

"Sometimes I feel like it’s not worth it because I hate having to miss you. I hate having to deal with everything I love about you everyday and not be able to be with you. I hate it all. Sometimes I hate loving you. If only you understood how much you have dug yourself into my heart. I’m scared if I take you out, I might bleed to death.

4 more days

2009-12-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

4 more days to christmas.
Im dreading it.

I don’t like Christmas. It’s the time when whatever you’re feeling is like ten times, you know? So if you’re feeling happy, you’ll be like times 10 happy. If you’re sad, it’s like worse; very emo. The lights on Orchard Road? Getting on my nerves, man. I don’t wanna hear Jingle Bells in shopping malls either. I’m like staying away from shopping centres because of that. Sorry to be so bah-humbug!
-Rozz, 98.7fm Dj

Exactly how i feel.
Christmas gonna suck alot.
I feel like scrooge in the christmas carol.

Stupid eye had been giving me problems ever since few days ago.
Bloody itchy and swollen.

& i realised how i would either dream of you/get a nightmare.
I hate nightmares.
Esp when i wake up in fear.

Screw life.
No point in crying everday.

It's you

2009-12-18T23:42:00.001+08:00

I spent 23 hours a day wondering whether we’re wrong for each other, wondering whether we’ve got the energy that we need to get through everything that we seem to get into, whether the baggage we both bring would sink a small ship. But in the 24th hour, I realize I’ve been thinking about you for 23 hours. There’s something about you I can’t stay away from. Something about you, that makes me want to love you.
-eletheowl

It's you.

3F BBQ

2009-12-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

3F BBQ

Went parkway first then to ecp.

CHIO RIGHT.
Taken using phone camera.

EVEN CHIOER.
Taken using camera ^^
Can be use as those default wallpaper/screensaver alr.

yuping, hazel, vigi, kenglui, hsiaowoon, amelia, zann, chermaine, me.

A, Z, C, Z!

Jump shot, zann, me.

Jump shot!
Both taken by yuping.

BRACES!

Played poker and stuff while waiting for the rest of the ppl.
Then ppl from the other pit went over and started to gl us.
Like asking for phone numbers and basically just being gl.
Bloody irritated -.-

The smoke looks so ghostly -.-

Helped with the bbqing of food, im not a slacker okay -.-
Wanted to go see at the rocks and stuff,
but it's infested with cockroaches -.-
Plus reynold said there are rats also.
Totally spoil the mood.

Opg came, blah blah, eat, blah...
Then the guys started playing with fire -.-

Used skewers to write this.
Self explainatory.

Basically it was quite boring la -.-
Boooo.

2A Chalet

2009-12-15T23:35:00.001+08:00

2A Chalet

Finally posting it -.-

DAY ONE
went vivo with val cause she had free goldclass tickets + it was the last day.
LOVES.
Watched the informant.
Super intellectual show -.-
Went to the lounge first before movie starts.

NC 16, ahem.

The lounge

:D

The theatre was super amazing.
Chair is adjustable and they even provide blankets.
All the more for ppl like me who are afraid of cold -.-

Being retarded while waiting for the movie to start -.-

Show was okay,
but to others right, it will be BORING.
But val and i are smart to understand it :D

Even the toilet is nice. HAHA.

Went to shop ard at vivo then went to chalet.
We were there when they are having bbq.
Then mr and mrs wee came O: :D :D :D
Basically we just started talking/asking cock to mr wee, which is fun.
They left at night and we went to ehub.
BOWLING!
I rock okay.
I got strike.
LOL.
Wanted to watch movie aft that but there's no movie to watch -.-"

Went kbox instead as we had discounts.
Seriously, i think that night i kee siao or sth.
Not me, EVERYBODY WAS -.-
First time i actually sing/scream into mic damn loudly.
Plus singing all the emo songs -___-
It was kinda nice actually...
Couldnt hear myself, just sing until val go change song cause she thinks im emo.
BOOO.
It was stupid, and we started and ended the session with 恋爱ing.
Was nice when all of us are jumping ard and shouting L-O-V-E.
Love makes the world goes round.
I can sing the super fast part! :D
HAHA.
Cause somehow learn it long time ago.

Went back chalet, and all of us still in the crazy mood -.-
Keep singing and singing.
Bought maggie mee and eat, and guess what -.-
I took almost 1hr to finish.
YAY ME.

Played poker and lame stuff until we decided to go pr park to watch sunrise.
It was about 5+ alr i think.
Walked there, sit on bench until some idiot fell aslp -.-
So we started doing taiji and dancing in the middle of the park.
GOSH, how retarded.

Waited till 6+ till we saw light.

Random light effects.

See the difference?
Took around 10 shots, but lazy to upload all.

Went back chalet, and all of us looks drunk.
We cant walk properly at all.

Slept at around 7.
Woke up at around 12.

DAY TWO
lunched at the chicken rice place at ehub.
Screw that place.

Val made this heart shape using soya sauce.

Arcade next!
I seriously own in bishi bashi.
Anyone want compete? -.-
Managed to reach lvl 18 with only 50cents.

Then we saw this crazy guy spending over 100bucks just to get tickets.
He played monkey paradise or sth but keep failing to get the jackpot.
Plus he keep switching between 2 machines, while waiting for the tickets to come out.
The machine even ran out of tickets twice -.-

Went back chalet slack and stuff.
Then had a combined bbq with 2d.
Saw jiaying and audrey there, LOVES!
I had this emo aura which somehow influenced ortree to be emo -.-
Didnt eat much at bbq, only 1 chicken wing and few satays.
No appetite -.-

Went bowling at night again,
i own.
1st frame, gutter -.-
2nd frame, 3.
3rd and 4th, DOUBLE STRIKE!
Pure ~~tyconess~~ skills.

SKILLS.

Anyway, brinjal promised to treat me mac if i get turkey,
and sakura if i get strike 4 times in a row O:

Went back chalet and i actually played blackjack/daidi/indian poker with brinjal till 7am -___-"
While the rest of the ppl are happily snoring away.
Just dun feel like slping.
Anw, slept at 7+ and woke up at 9+.
Check out and went home straight to sleep.
Slept from 11+ to 6+ -.-

This post is blogged long time ago but the photo cant seem to be uploaded, thus, the delay.

I miss you

2009-12-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

I miss everything about you.

Tarot Readings

2009-12-10T23:41:00.002+08:00

Tarot Readings.
Pick out only the more impt/accurate parts.
It's super accurate.

how you feel about yourself now (The Hanged Man)

You feel a little confused and perhaps fearful because you sense or know that there is someone or something you need to give up to be able to move on. This self-sacrifice isn’t always clear - you may not even know quite what or whom you should give up. Perhaps you need to try and look at things from a different perspective.

what you most want at this moment (Temperance)

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is some peace and harmony, a sense of control and to feel that life is flowing again. Perhaps you have been, or still are, going through some tough times regarding a relationship, financial worries or some other kind of loss. Take heart that peace will be restored - this is a time for you to be calm and patient and life will soon have a sense of normality again.

your fears (The Fool)

You are afraid of making the wrong decisions. There is a warning here that fool-hardy, impetuous actions could lead to major problems. Perhaps you feel that you don’t have control over a situation, either personal or professional. You may feel unable to complete a task or stay in a current relationship and fear the consequences of your decisions. Perhaps you know deep down that what you want isn’t really such a good thing.

what is going for you (The Emperor)

You are self-assured and more than capable of influencing people or events to achieve what you want. What’s more, support and guidance from your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life is there for the asking. Go for it!

what is going against you (The Sun)

You may experience a few delays on your quest for success and achievement but don’t worry, you’ll get there in a blaze of glory. Other than a few minor delays, look forward to a period of joy and happiness.

outcome (The Lovers)

Love is coming into your life even if you really can’t see where from at this time. If you are on your own a new lover will soon enter your life. If you are in an unhappy relationship you have a choice to make - go with your heart, take the risk, greater happiness is ahead of you.

Didnt del much cause mostly accurate.
KOEK!
This online tarot thingy take away our rice bowls as fortune tellers -_____-"

101 days

2009-12-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

101 days.
101 reasons.why i'll wait.

Bliss is having your arms wrapped around a lover, hearing the steady rhythm of his breathing, feeling the rise and fall of his chest, burying your head into his chest, and taking in the familiar scents of him all night long.
-runawaytrain

I don't know such bliss.

On a side note,
rebonded my hair today.
Flat like !@$%^
Hate the fringe.
But at least it's straight.
Maybe i'll just need time getting used to it.

100天

2009-12-09T21:26:00.002+08:00

100天

Dreamt of you last night again.
And i cried aft waking up.
I guess it doesnt matter.
This happens at least once a week.

For you, a thousand times over.
Even if it means going through the same thing for another 997 times.

Never enough

2009-12-06T23:32:00.005+08:00

I don't know if I love you more than you love me,
I don’t know if I love you less than you love me and I don’t know if we love each other just the same.
I guess we’ll never know because there will never be an objective measure of love.
But what I know is that I love you with all that I have and if that’s not enough then I’m sorry.
My love and my heart isn’t enough, then I’m sorry I’m not enough for you.
-eletheowl

Maybe im hallucinating things.
For a long period of time, i really thought my dream was real.
Cause i swear i feel it.
But then again, maybe it's just hallucination.

Sometimes I feel cheap.
Sometimes I feel worthless.
Sometimes I feel as small as an electron.
Sometimes I feel invisible.

My life never feel whole, ever since the day you left.

是因为我爱你

2009-12-05T23:03:00.003+08:00

我从来都不说不, 不是因为我愿意, 是因为我爱你.
我从来都不生气, 不是因为我没有脾气, 是因为我爱你.

Quiz

2009-12-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Doing this for the sake of pris.
BE HONOURED.

Rules:
1. Answer the questions as honestly as possible.
2. Post this as "Did That Happen To You?"
3. Tag 10 friends.

1. What do you do if you are in the bathroom with a beetle flying around?
SCREAM -.- Rmb last time i scream when the cockroach started flying -.-

2. What do you do if you hear a song you like playing on the radio when you are all alone in the room?
Depends. Either sing if the song is high/cry if the song is sad.

3. You want to speak to your crush badly. What is your pick up line?
I wont talk.

4. What do you do if all your friends hate a particular band that you love?
Err, too bad for them. They have bad taste. YAY.

5. What do you do when you trip and fall in front of many people?
Malu -.- then maybe laugh.

6. You forgot to do your multiple-choice question homework and your class starts in 5 minutes. What do you do?
Tikam or copy lorh -.-

7. You have bad breath and someone speaks to you. How do you react?
DAO. Unless i have mint.

8. You just finished gym and after a shower, you drop your underpants on the wet floor. What do you do?
Wear back? Doubt the floor is THAT wet.

9. What do you do if a personality quiz says that you have a lousy personality as your result?
The quiz is not reliable.

10. Your friend gave you the worst gift you have ever received and asks: Do you like it? How do you react?
It's special?

11.(Continued from question 10) What are you really thinking secretly inside?
It's the thoughts that counts. Same ans as pris.

12. A hot guy/girl keeps looking at you while you are on the bus. What are you secretly thinking inside?
Is the person a stalker? -.-

Lazy to tag any person.

4th December 2009

2009-12-04T21:52:00.003+08:00

It's the 4th again.

This song is so self-denial.

It's the same like,
life rocks,
im happy,
i dun cut myself,
i have alr move on,
i don't love you,
and IM NOT LYING.

Right.
I hate life.
I hate the way how non existance i am to you.

Worthy

2009-12-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

The truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.

Back

2009-12-02T22:26:00.002+08:00

Back from 2a chalet and im tired.
Bloody tired.
Slept at 7 for both nights.
Today went home and sleep straight for 7hrs, didnt eat breakfast and lunch.
Plus there's 3F bbq tmr, sian.

Will update one day, bloody no mood.

Which idiot cry all of a sudden when the rest of the ppl are having fun?
I am the idiot.

Fuck.
Few days ago, i thought i could.
Somehow everything makes sense.
Now, i cant.
What the fuck.
I want to die.

Simplest Words

2009-11-27T20:56:00.000+08:00

How about i miss you..?

Dance Chalet;P6 Gathering

2009-11-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

-papertissue

Dance chalet was ❤.
Though there's only 5 ppl.
Me, jacq, may, jinghiang, traci.
1st day we went escape cause we had free tickets.
I still have the chop on my hand now :/
Went haunted, i closed my eyes throughout.
Booooo.
Im still scared of such things.
Viking was fun, cause jacq's reaction is classic.
She was cursing throughout la.
Sat at the very very top.
I hate the air pressure though.
Leg shivering -.-
Most rides are removed, so it's quite sucky now.

Went dinner at buddy hoagies.
They didnt charge service charge + gst, RARE.
Caught a christmas carol, i think the ending is super heartwarming.
We got chased out from paranormal btw -.-
NTUC WAS LOL!
Dance has the auntie trait, damn funny.

Went back chalet and we had this short emo talk.
Aft that is just gossiping plus watching random shows on tv -.-

2nd day went for dental.
Then to p6 gathering at jingjing's house.
Played mj, then we had this truth or truth game.
Loser in blackjack had to answer question,
and questions are all damn sensitive!
Everybody kena the question except me,
so they decided to change it to spin the bottle -_____-"
But anw, the questions arent that bad,
and the dare for jianmin was damn hilarious.
Cant believe all of us have changed so much to become so crazy.
Dinner ordered pizza hut,
and we stayed to watch the penguin show before going off.

Went back chalet,
and there's some sort of emo aura which is bad.
And that night was damn emo,
had this talk with jacq.
Sian sian sian sian sian.
Watched saw aft that -.-
Realised how im not afraid of gore but horror.
Jacq is just the total opposite la.
HAHAHA.
I mean the person saw the leg, only got 1line of blood wad, also no bone -.-
Dig the stomach only show intestine, blood looks fake also.
Im sadistic, somehow -.-
But jigsaw is SICK!
Use such ways to teach ppl to treasure life.

3rd day was just checking out.
Boooooooo.

Been a long time since i had such long post.

Indifference

2009-11-25T22:27:00.001+08:00

Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. Don't tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better then lies. Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more then angry words.

Will do a proper update someday.
Tired.