For you, a thousand times over.

♥Wednesday, November 25, 2009




Don't expect someone to read your mind, and don't play games with heads or hearts. Don't tell half truths and expect trust when the full truth comes out. Half truths are no better then lies. Don't be cold to someone you care about, indifference hurts more then angry words.

Will do a proper update someday.
Tired.

ich liebe dich_
10:27:00 PM

♥Tuesday, November 24, 2009


The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.


Went dental just now.
PINK and blue!
Went home and bathe before going back to dance chalet + meeting up with p6 friends ltr.
That's why im blogging now -.-

BOOOOOOO.
Hate life.
Hate to think of what will happen in the future.

ich liebe dich_
4:12:00 PM

♥Monday, November 23, 2009


Dance Chalet
23rd to 25th November

P6 Gathering
24th November

Miss catching up with all of them! ):

Miss emo talks with dance also.
Gonna emo like crap during chalet again.

ich liebe dich_
2:11:00 PM

♥Friday, November 20, 2009


And I get it, you're not giving up on me, you're forcing me to give up on you.
And that I cannot do.
-eletheowl

Photoshoot photos up at my wordpress.
Post: Hot N Cold
Ask me for pw if you want to see.

ich liebe dich_
9:44:00 PM


Worked for 3 days.
Tiring.
Like seriously, aft working you will know how difficult it is to earn money.
Sian -.-
Stand for 5hrs straight everday.
But i see familiar faces everyday though.
Today wasnt that tiring compared to ytd.
Cause i listen to music -.-
Purposely listened to techno cause it makes me HIGH -.-
Like seriously, i feel dumb mouthing the lyrics to miracle/everytime we touch etc.

Life sucks and it's damn boring.
roflmaomgwtfbbqwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm -.-

Fuck.
I hate moodswings.

ich liebe dich_
9:14:00 PM

♥Thursday, November 19, 2009


800th post.

Time flies.
Say this for the idk how many times alr.
But it's so true.

Ytd night sucks.
I was bloody scared.
I fucking swear.
It actually kept me awake for 2hrs before i fall aslp again.
And i think now im damn protective of myself.
Feels wrong, and IDK.
FUCK.

Sometimes you have so many things to get off your chest,
and you feels so suffocated to suppress all the feelings,
cause you cant confide to the only person that you can confide to.

The person is the only person that you have so much trust in,
and somehow it just makes you comfortable to confide in that person.
No matter what happen.
Okay fuck, now i really feel like confiding in someone now.
CRAP.


叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
感觉如果要走谁能说 no
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

ich liebe dich_
10:51:00 PM


It takes a strong heart to love but it takes an even stronger heart to love after its been broken.


I guess my heart is stronger now...?

Received photoshoot pictures from charis alr.
Not as screwed as i expected.
It's private so cant post it up.
Maybe in wordpress locked post next time.

Today was amusing talking to charis and cherie.
Charis is SADISTIC.

ich liebe dich_
12:20:00 AM

♥Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Do wishes really come true?
Meteor showers today midnight till 5am.
I don't know whether im lucky enough to catch one.
Wishes come true if you believe in it.
Having hope is better than nothing i guess.

Sigh.
Too many wishes to wish for.
Humans are all greedy right?
Even after they get what they wanted, they ask for more.

There's nothing i can do now,
but to wish/pray,
whatever that gives me hope and keeps me going.

I love the way you pick me up and spin me round and round.
I love the way you hold my hand no matter who’s there.
I love the way you say my full name when you’re mad.
I love the way that you tilt my chin just enough to kiss me.
I love the way your arms fit perfectly around my waist.
I love the way you say I love you like no one else does.
I love the way you let me sleep on your shoulder when I’m tired.
I love the way you brush my hair out of my face.
I love how we can talk and exchange banter about everything under the sun.
I love the way you love me.


I miss you baby.

ich liebe dich_
10:56:00 PM

♥Monday, November 16, 2009


Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you.
Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece you.
They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "maybe we should be just friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It'a a soul-hurt, a real-gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.
-Neil Gaiman


I don't hate love.

ich liebe dich_
9:53:00 PM

♥Saturday, November 14, 2009


I hate the life im in right now.
Mum pms/moodswing, whatever.
Kp me for nth.
Call me study.
Accuse me.
Think she knows everything.
Ya la, you have people/spies reading my blog for you and telling you everything la.
But do they know everything?
NO.
SO DONT FUCKING ACCUSE ME FOR STH I DIDNT DO.
DONT ALWAYS THINK THAT YOU'RE RIGHT.
DONT ALWAYS THINK THAT SMSING IS THE CAUSE OF MY SUCKY RESULTS.
DONT THREATEN ME.
DONT DARE ME.

Fucking hate life.
Plus next yr sec 4, gonna be worse.
I dun care if any of your spies are reading this now.
I dun give a damn.

You check my phone all the time,
sit beside me when im using com,
dun let me use com if i nvr study.
Seriously just screw yourself.

EGO EGO EGO.
IS EGO SO IMPT TO SO MANY FUCKING PPL?!

Hate it.
Especially when no one is there for you.
You're supposed to endure all this shit without any motivation.
Life sucks.

Of course I can live without you. But what kind of life is that?
-runawaytrain

ich liebe dich_
10:16:00 PM